Justin Bieber says he was walking ‘on eggshells’ throughout his 1st year of marriage: ‘There was just lack of trust’

• Justin Bieber recently opened up to GQ about his marriage to Hailey Bieber (née Baldwin).
• "The first year of marriage was really tough," he said. "There was just lack of trust."
• The "Peaches" singer said they're stable now, describing his wife as a redemptive force in his life.
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Justin Bieber recently admitted that he spent his first year as a husband "on eggshells."

The "Peaches" singer opened up to GQ about his relationship with Hailey Bieber (née Baldwin) and why their first year of marriage was "really tough."

"There was a lot, going back to the trauma stuff. There was just lack of trust," he said. "There was all these things that you don't want to admit to the person that you're with, because it's scary. You don't want to scare them off by saying, 'I'm scared.'"

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Justin has said that becoming famous at an early age led him to use "pretty heavy drugs" and contributed to his struggles with mental illness. He has also said he "abused all of [his] relationships" and was "disrespectful to women" before getting married.

Justin and Hailey dated non-exclusively in late 2015 and early 2016 before going through a "dramatic excommunication," in the supermodel's words.

They reunited as a couple in June 2018 and quietly tied the knot at a New York City courthouse just a few months later.

Justin told GQ he felt "compelled" to get married: "I just felt like that was my calling. Just to get married and have babies and do that whole thing."

Despite the couple's early challenges, the 27-year-old star said his marriage is stable now, crediting both God and Hailey for his current health and happiness.

"We're just creating these moments for us as a couple, as a family, that we're building these memories. And it's beautiful that we have that to look forward to," he said. "Before, I didn't have that to look forward to in my life. My home life was unstable. Like, my home life was not existing. I didn't have a significant other. I didn't have someone to love. I didn't have someone to pour into. But now I have that."